I’m back!

It has been a long time since I’ve written here. For my readers who waited, my apologies. For anyone reading this blog for the first time, you chose the right time to do so!

I started writing posts on my LinkedIn profile nandinichakravarty81 when I received my report on visitors to my blog, which was also garnering more visits. Much like how our lives work, I realized my posts on LinkedIn and the ones I write here could complement each other…reflecting my “and-more-than-but” perspective in life.

My last LinkedIn post looked at warmth vs competence professionally. Here, I’ll explore it personally because – as with anything I think of – the concept can apply to both.

I am INTJ according to the Myers Briggs Type Inventory, which stands for Introversion, Intuitive, Thinking, and Judging. INTJs are known as “The Architects”; analytical, strategic, and independent. We are driven by logic and a desire to improve systems, focusing on long-term goals, turning ideas into concrete plans. We value competence and knowledge.

I never would have thought that, seeing how I have always been attuned to the emotional states of others (which would suggest Feeling instead of Thinking) and how adaptable I am to my ever-changing world (implying Extroversion instead of Introversion). However, there was no denying I have always reflected on everything from my values and beliefs – an aspect of Introversion – and my being attuned to my world has always filtered through my perceptions of it, which lends to the Thinking instead of Feeling. But test-retest reliability gave evidence to, and validated my inner sense of, being INTJ. It was on further reflection that I realized my Extroversion and Feeling dimensions were more visible during times of stress or transition; at times a trauma response, a way of navigating uncertain waters at others.

Now for the topic at hand – warmth and competence. As I noted in my description of INTJ, I value competence and knowledge. At the same time, I have leaned on warmth, exhibited through being attuned to the emotional states of others and being able to adapt to it, when necessary.

This may be why I always felt rankled by the article I read where perceptions of high warmth in the workplace were accompanied with those of poor competence and vice versa. It may also explain why I felt assuaged when I went into the details of the SCM (Stereotype Content Model) and learned the article was wrong.

I mention in brief in my LinkedIn post the term “Strategic Socialization”; a term I coined for the interplay of warmth and competence. I inherently start from a place of valuing competence, warmth being a tool to show and observe competence. As such, the concept of “foot in the door” fits my warmth in these dimensions, warmth being a way to reach others and therein giving them the opportunity to show their skills and knowledge as I would show my own.

Strategic Socialization may seem cold, but we all do it in some form or another. Even when we are attuned to the emotions of others and adapt to them, we are showing our competence in doing so; as a licenced Clinician, for example, I have evidence in working with clients that show my competence in doing so. Furthermore, we may use it for observable benefits – for example, I will not deny that I have sometimes used my ability to be warm and approachable in order to gain something, a tangible goal, a service or a material object. The difference is in the predominance of warmth or competence…not in their mutual exclusivity.

In the professional realm, I related this to networking and teamwork. While not being restricted to the professional realm, we can see how strategist socializing appears in both. In networking, our express goal is to connect with others to advance and promote our work or the name of our organization, the latter being the fields where we demonstrate our competence.

In teamwork, we balance our competence with that of our peers through a recognition of being with them as pieces of a puzzle; we may compete, we may complement, but in the end we show our competence in relation to that of our teammates.

Another value I hold is supplement, not replacement. I supplement competence with warmth, with the former being my default value. How about you?

Earning Respect vs. Losing Respect.

I have a question for all of you. Which do you say more often; that people “earn your respect”, or that they “lose your respect”?

There are a lot of reasons people would fall on the former. After all, earning is more positive than losing, so using that statement seems more strengths-based than the latter. We see an individual’s strengths and skills, and these earn them more respect. Much like a game where you earn points. Or a Likert scale of progress on a performance evaluation or appraisal at work. By thinking of earning respect – like the game or the performance appraisal – we can gauge the energy and socioemotional investment we will give them among the multitude of people we encounter in our lives.

There are also two implicit assumptions here (where assumption is being neutrally defined as preconceived and automatic notions) as there is with any fast rule-of-thumb that saves us time and effort. First, by saying they earn respect, we are fundamentally saying they are starting with none of our respect and earn it through our interactions with and observations of them. Second, it indicates we have our own definitions of “respect”, and the individual should essentially meet our criteria the more we connect with them.

For me, the statement of people “losing my respect” holds more weight, as it avoids these assumptions that go against what is often seen as a clinical skill and I hold as a personal value – Unconditional Positive Regard, or UPR.

I am going to go out on a limb and say everyone in the fields of mental and behavioral health know of UPR. Carl Rogers, the founder of the Person-Centered Approach in mental health, defined UPR as “…caring for the client, but not in a possessive way or in such a way as simply to satisfy the therapist’s own needs… It means caring for the client as a separate person, with permission to have his own feelings, his own experiences” (Rogers, 1957).

I openly confess that I believe all people are essentially good, my favorite example being the question – have you ever seen a “bad baby” right from birth? The focus is on the basic nature of a baby, the very nature that remains with us. What a baby misses – all the social, emotional and psychological learning borne of existing in the external world – is what gives this core all the actions, thoughts and conditional emotions they express. It is a naive belief…if we hold just that belief. However, we can hold the belief AND find the individual’s learned responses unacceptable and requiring change.

Let’s return to the two assumptions in saying people earn our respect. First, that they are starting at zero. Holding the belief that all individuals are inherently good implies automatically giving them a headstart in our positive impressions of the  simply by virtue of being a fellow human being and an entity in their own right. And this includes respect. So, we inherently begin with respecting them, and respect is lost not for who they ARE, but for what they say, how they act, and so forth. That, too, if it appears not as an isolated or rare event, but as one with sufficient evidence to say it has become an inherent pattern of how they relate to the world.

Now for the second – that we have our own definitions and criteria for “respect”. Token language, or the very words we use, are made by humans. As such, the dictionary or encyclopedia definitions of “respect” don’t always match our own personal definitions of the same. For one in Asian cultures, for example, keeping your eyes down when talking to someone of authority is a sign of respect; in Western cultures, it is a sign of disrespect. These definitions are further refined by our own experiences with others and are therefore individualized…with us as the evaluators. If this is the case, how is the other individual meant to know how to earn our respect, even if there are cultural and generic definitions? How do they earn points at a game when they have no idea of the rules? They CAN, however, infer, for the most part, our negative reactions to something they have said or done from our verbal, non-verbal and paraverbal communication.

So, next time you speak of respect for another, think ask yourself – Do you give respect…or do they already have it?

On Love

I have been single for most of my life. I have heard, and still hear, about how I should find someone, that when I get older it will be harder, that I must be feeling lonely. And yet…I don’t.

While studying for my Bachelor’s, my major was Psychology but one of my minors was Philosophy. I loved the subject as it suited my tendency to reflect on things in much greater depth. It was in this subject that I learned about a conceptualization of love that made me feel a little less concerned about why I didn’t feel upset when I didn’t seek out, or reciprocate, love. Or, more specifically, one type of love that my friends and family wanted me to find.

The Ancient Greeks are known for their approaches to anything vague which could lend itself to philosophical thought. According to these great thinkers, there are 8 types of love. Not only are each of these related to different expressions (and sometimes different targets) of love, they are also not mutually exclusive.

The 8 types of love are Eros, Pragma, Ludus, Storge, Mania, Philia, Agape, and Philautia. Eros, Pragma, Ludus and Mania are primarily romantic; Storge and Philia are primarily geared towards family and/or friends; and, finally, Agape and Philautia are associated with self-love.

Eros is the most well-known expression of love – passionate love. THIS is the form of love that my family and friends want me to find. The one in movies. The one we first think of when we think about the world ‘love’. The one we think about when we say we’re looking for chemistry. Often seen during the early period of a romantic relationship, it is characterized by pleasure and lust. While for many Eros is also the start of their “great love”, the Ancient Greeks were nonetheless very wary of it, considering it the most dangerous, as one could lose their ability to process and think in favor of a fulfillment of the primitive and innate drive to procreate.

Pragma is known as long-lasting or enduring love. Love that spans years, and is characterized by commitment and maturity. In terms of romance, it may be prioritized over, or even replace, the initial passion felt by the partners – much like how the sharp, beautiful yet unsteady edges of a cliff may erode with time, being replaced with a plainer, but smoother and firmer, structure. Hence, when people speak of the passion being lost in the relationship, the question for them is not if they “fell out of love”, but rather if their love changed. 

Ludus, or ‘playful love’ may be seen as the love that we feel initially towards a romantic partner. This type of love is characterized by superfluity, a frivolous endeavor for which there are no objectives or goals. That crush you had in high school? Flirting with someone? Those are examples of Ludus. While Ludus does at times leads to more passion, or even to a continuous relationship founded on continuous flirting, the outcome is almost inevitably either giving into Eros which leads into commitment to each other (therein being more like Pragma) or seeking the same elsewhere (a continuation of Ludus with different partners).

Mania, as a term in itself, refers to something that is frantic and obsessive. It should come as no surprise, then, that Mania as a form of love is also known as obsessive love, and is characterized by possessiveness and jealousy. To it’s extreme, it is expressed through stalking. In today’s virtual world, it can be expressed in the continuous checking of – and often commenting on – social media posts from the person of interest. The line between Eros and Mania is sometimes unclear, passion sometimes leading to obsession or obsession being an extreme form of passion. Ludus, too, can sometimes be associated with Mania, especially if one party begins to take the flirting more seriously than the other.

As stated earlier, love isn’t just between romantic partners. Storge and Philia do not relate to romantic love but rather love with family and friends.

Storge, or familiar love, is that which is shared with family or even friends who are close as family. Like Pragma, it includes some level of endurance. Characterized by loyalty, Storge is not targeted towards romantic partners as Pragma is. This is the type of love expressed when we say we would do anything for a person. It is the form of love when we say we love our parents , grandparents, siblings, cousins…and not all of these are blood relatives.

Philia is considered friendship love (although, before Aristotle renamed it, it was brotherly love). We often find this in our solidarity and patriotism. This is the love we have for “fellow man”. When our own people are threatened, at risk, such as in the case of African Americans and Asian Americans, we can see how our grief at the injustice against these populations come out of a threat to those with whome we share philic love. It is also this same type of love that supports individuals who systemically encourage such injustice. In this case, Philia – as with all emotions – overrules the thought processes with which we could objectively determine if our actions were just or not.

And so we come to the past two forms of love. Agape and Philautia are both self-love, but differ in one major aspect – one refers to the world beyond oneself, and the other is oneself in the world.

Agape, or selfless love, is characterized by generosity and charity. Focusing on the self in the world, this form of love is what we express when we do for others. Unlike the other forms of love, there is no one specific target – this is a more general love where we favor others before we favor ourselves. The ostensible expression of this is charity and sharing joy with others through multiple paths – artists, therapists, retail workers, everyone does it in some form or another. The other, more subtle, way is when we identify ourselves as nurturers, or find ourselves “gunning for the underdog”.

Then we have the opposite – Philautia, or self love. Yes, it can go to the extreme, which is what we know as narcissism. However, it is actually the form of love that we often encourage and more often than not find the most challenging. Sometimes we neglect it, at other times we do it and then label it as ‘selfish’ or ‘immodest’. It is love of the self, of who one is in essence. Not on the basis of how others define us or describe us, but how we know ourselves. After all, we often hear that to love others, we should love ourselves first. Everything from self-care, self-respect, to boundary-setting with others; all of these are an expression of Philautia.

I like to think that the Ancient Greeks had it right. There is not just one form of love, and merging all of these forms into one abstract, vague cloud sets us up for more than one type of misconception. It is possible to transition between the forms of love, and it is just as possible that one form of love can be experienced in its own right.

And this is where I stand. Yes, I do not seek out or reciprocate Eros, Pragma, Ludus, or Mania. But what I miss in not seeking these out I find in the rich experience I have with Storage, Philia, Agape and Philautia. In the end, my “great love” may not be romantic love at all!

Being and Doing are Different

I am one of those people others think are naïve. I believe that people are essentially good. There’s just one thing that makes me feel that not naïve – I still account for bad behavior.

Simply put, a person and their behavior are different entities. Yes, it is a person who behaves a certain way. But defining an individual by what they do negates the fact that a person is more than what they do.

In psychology, we talk about the Gestalt approach – the whole is greater than the sum of parts. We are also introduced to the cognitive diamond; our functioning depends on the symbiotic relationship between our thoughts, emotions, physiological responses and actions. Taking all of this in consideration, it may make some sense as to why I don’t believe that only one’s actions define them.

There is a difference between lying and being a liar. There is a difference between stealing and being a thief. There is a difference between lashing out and being dangerous. There is a difference between making mistakes and being stupid or incorrigible.

A 45-years-old woman has been drinking since she was 16 years old. She has tried often to reach the goal of sobriety, but falls off the wagon almost every time. It is not difficult to imagine the amount of times she is perceived – or has even been told – that she is hopeless, or weak, or lacks willpower.

We have no idea why she keeps relapsing. The thoughts that run through her mind when she’s not drinking. The physiological side-effects when she doesn’t drink. The emotional numbing that she, perhaps, finds relief in when she’s drinking.

In the process, we provide neither opportunities to learn constructive emotional or cognitive coping skills, nor do we help alleviate the physiological side-effects of withdrawal. She relapses again, we confirm our beliefs that she is hopeless, or weak, or lacks willpower, and there is no change for her situation.

However, calling her an alcoholic brings to mind that drinking is part of her identity, part of who she is. In her own mind, she too may begin defining herself in the same way; “I’m an alcoholic”, not “I drink too much” or “I have a problem with drinking”. Take a moment to consider which of these statements would give the listener more hope for change?

As an alcoholic, it is no longer just an action but embedded in the person as much as their identified ethnicity, personality, sexual orientation. It is unchosen, unbidden…unchangeable.

Now consider her as an individual with a problem with drinking, or an individual with substance use disorder. Drinking or having a substance use disorder are actions. Yes, unchosen. And still unbidden. But not unchangeable. Indeed, old patterns of behavior can be unlearned, and replaced with new, more constructive ones.

Looking past “they do…” to “they are…” not only allows us not to judge a person, it also gives us the opportunity to develop more constructive and healthy relationships with them. If we can isolate a person’s behavior from their identity, we learn to be more non-judgmental. We are able to see the woman as one who continues to have the will to change, and has not stopped trying to do so. A woman with hope. A woman who is strong enough to pick herself up to try again. Indeed, a woman that we may be more willing to help.

Helping an individual separate their behavior from their identity is no easy task. Often, individuals have heard their behavior defining who they are so often that it has become ingrained. They may have heard it since a young age, so that it was organically embedded into their identity. Alternatively, even if an individual did not believe that the behavior defined them, hearing it often enough could lead them to doubt themselves and then accept what others were saying as truth.

At times, it may appear impossible to bring an individual to this realization. We may feel like the individual is resistant. However, we will again be making the error from earlier – judging the person by their actions. It is possible that they are in the pre-contemplation stage of growth; the first stage in the stages of change model.

The Pre-contemplation stage is characterized by a lack of awareness, or a denial, that there is a problem (in this case, the problem being that the behavior is not the same as the whole person). If an individual is in this stage, it simply means that the person is not ready for change. Trying to help the individual separate the behavior from the individual’s identity, then, would be akin to bringing the horse to water but not being able to make it drink. It is important to know when to stop trying and accept that the individual is not ready for such a change.

But it is important to try first. It may indeed be difficult, but once this assumed connection is broken there are simultaneous benefits in rapport-building and in behavior change. Seeing past an individual’s behavior to the identity behind it gives value to the existence of the person. For a person who has lacked validation for some time, this becomes a lifeline, which in turn translates into a sense of trust. Meanwhile, as the behavior is no longer embedded to the point that it is indispensable, it is easier to unlearn and replace with a healthier and more constructive behavior.

A very important sent side note here – We are not obliged to accept everyone regardless of what they do. We, too, have our limits. These limits are just as important as helping those who have not received the help that they deserve.

Behavior must receive consequences. Negative behaviors that do not lead to appropriate consequences are illicitly approved. This is particularly dangerous if we consider extreme negative behaviors. However, such consequences should be limited to the behavior and not the person behind it.

Ignorance vs Adamance

Today’s post builds on my earlier posts about discrimination. If you haven’t read them, this will be new for you. If you have, you may hear echoes from the other posts. Regardless, I hope it offers more insight to another point of view on discrimination.

There have been more than a few times when I spoke to someone on the phone, and – when they met me – they were surprised to find that I was not English, but Indian. At one point, I was asked, “Ok, you’re Indian? Dot or feather?”

When I think about my responses in these situations, I noticed others felt more offended than I did. As I usually land up doing, I found myself wondering why I didn’t feel as offended as others did.

That is when it occurred to me…I have always believed that words are ambiguous. In these situations, I had thought the responses could have been because of ignorance, or a lack of knowledge about what people from another culture would find offensive.

There is a difference between ignorance and adamance. Ignorance, according to the Webster dictionary, refers to “lack of knowledge, education or awareness”. Likewise, adamance is defined as “unshakable or insistent especially in maintaining a position or opinion”. Taken without emotional or social assumptions, in their pure meaning, the former may be unintentional while the latter is decidedly intentional.

In the situations above, I took the opportunity to correct their responses. In the first, I asked if it made a difference; in the latter, I clarified I was East Indian, but not all East Indians had the dot, just as American Indians don’t always wear the feather. In addition, I made it clear that such generalizations were inaccurate, and could be offensive to many.

Fortunately, there had been a change in their subsequent reactions to others and to myself; they used new information to change their responses to individuals from other cultures. This confirmed my belief that their responses were because of a lack of knowledge…ignorance.

There have been situations, however, where I took offense.

As a therapist, I was preparing to take my licensure exam. As I expressed my concerns regarding my performance, my colleagues stated, “Well, you’re Indian, so I’m sure the language barrier must be difficult”. As is my mien, I clarified to her that I had grown up in British-occupied Hong Kong, and English was – in fact – the first language I had ever learnt. The response?

“Yes, but still, you ARE Indian”.

From my perspective, this was a clear instance of adamance – new knowledge was not influencing her response, and it remained as it was despite my clarification. In fact, the earlier situations, if the individuals either defended their responses or no behavior change was seen, that too could be interpreted as adamance.

The threat of prejudice is a perceived one. Since perceptions are not concrete, it behooves us to utilize our executive functioning (our ability to process information we receive) to clarify them. Responding emotionally bypasses our refined skills of processing information. We do not think of what the true meaning was behind what an individual says and we do not use our own knowledge to educate the individual in front of us. We do not consider that they DON’T know better.

What follows is a rapidly deteriorating relationship. We non-verbally – and sometimes verbally – show our emotionally charged disapproval of the individual, and not just their behavior. We avoid the person, put them on the defensive (an automatic response to being attacked emotionally). We fight or avoid them, they fight or avoid us.

I should clarify, our initial indignant – and angry – emotional responses are not wrong. Our emotions are, after all, our evolutionary safeguards to threats. Prejudice and discrimination are real, and an adamant person could well be a threat to us. To deny our original defensive responses to a threat to our cultural identities is impossible. In fact, it would be unhealthy – and dangerous – to do so.

However, we have the advanced skills of executive functioning which we essentially bypass when we only follow our basic emotions. We do not take the time to think – we do not consider that the individual in front of us may not have ever had their original thought process questioned or corrected. We do not consider that, perhaps, they grew up in a culture where those responses were considered ‘normal’.

In the end, then, our response becomes no different than that of the person in front of us; we assume they are a threat, just as they assume they know everything about us based on one aspect of our culture. Meanwhile, there is no new knowledge passed to them, a lost opportunity to advocate for cultural change. We, too, make the assumption that people should, or do, know better.

Not using our executive functioning skills, we may assume that all individuals who give us these amibiguous responses are adamant. If they were ignorant, however, we miss the chance to teach them new information about different cultures. We may lose the chance to interact with someone who could be a culturally competent individual given new knowledge.

Take the time. Educate the person in front of you before reacting. Who knows, we may be able to break the fortress of discrimination from within it instead of from without.

Anything Can Happen

Like a soldier in an enemy camp
She moves silently
Watchful eyes ahead
Ears perked to sounds behind.

Its a short walk to the store,
Just down the way and round the corner.
Yet in her heart she knows
Anything can happen in this short time.

Glancing down every driveway,
Scanning every street,
She looks for signs of life
That could be threatening

Not that she has seen any
Over the past 3 years
But anything can happen
In this short time.

Wait a second.
Her steps slow down
Almost stopping altogether.
A man turns the corner up ahead.

She begins walking again,
Slower than before as she approaches him
Eyes even sharper,
Ears now trained to the front.

As they pass each other,
She speeds up
Her ears once again perked behind
For sounds from a man who had said nothing

She reminds herself
she will see people as she walks
And in front of the store;
Nothing has happened…

“Yet.”
Says her heart.
Anything can happen
In this short time.

Wanderlust

At 39, I finally got my US driver’s license and a car of my own. I used to drive my parents’ car in India; I have a driver’s license there, too. There are a differences here.

Apart from the obvious, of course – less traffic, better rules, the side we drive on…The other, more personal, difference is my mindset. Driving my parents’ car in India necessitated only driving the car when and where they wished. And that makes sense; the car is a convenience – and now a necessity – for them at this age.

But for me, it felt more and more like a chore to be driving from point to point for specific goals. The constant need for vigilance on roads that were too packed and – more often than not – like a battlefield of competing commuters trying to ‘get there first’, was exhausting. I rarely, if ever, got something out of it other than my parents, or myself, reaching the desired location.

Today, as I write this, I am contemplating how I have driven to another state (about an hour and a half away) 8 times since I got the car a month ago. I find myself wondering how long it will be before I’m on the road again, planning the next trip and allowing for changes in my plan. Almost like I’m reminding myself, reaffirming for myself, the fact that I have freedom here.

As a Third Culture Kid, I often felt rootless – not completely home in India, nor in Hong Kong. This was depressing as a child, as it felt like I never knew where I belonged. But it became liberating as an adult; I was not tied to any one place, which suited me just fine. Just like my tastes in music, film, food – and, indeed, life choices – I am a global citizen. I don’t give any one place more value than another; not by country, state or city.

Throughout my life, I learned several languages because I could. I talked about the differences of British rule in Hong Kong and India because I could. I chose to move to a country other than India or Hong Kong…because I could. I developed an awareness of the difference between discrimination and ignorance because I could. There’s a reason why “I can” indicates an ability AND a choice to do something.

This liberation to choose, however, was until recently stunted by the fact that I could not PHYSICALLY wander the way I wished. As a child, it was limited to what was decided by my parents. As an adult in India, it was a matter of linear travel; from point A to point B without diversion. Here, there was a freedom to be without a destination…but no way to enjoy it. In the end, I was restricted either by destination or by means; my rootlessness had limits.

The first time I drove to another state, I found myself wanting to go further. So, instead of just entering the state and then leaving it, I opted to stop at a gas station, get some food at a drive-thru, and the drive back home. None of this was planned – it was a spur of the moment decision made based simply on the fact that I could.

Having a car and being free to use it as needed or desired is, for me, a symbol. A symbol of travel without limits. A symbol of my pride in being rootless. A symbol of my wanderlust without boundaries.

Oh, the Masks we Wear!

I have often wondered about all the roles we play in life. We are sons and daughters, mothers and fathers, a friend, sometimes a teacher or student, in school or at work. How overwhelming would that be; not knowing which role you’re playing at any one time, or mixing them up without realizing it. Indeed, that DOES happen.

For instance, many individuals may unwittingly play the role of a student in a doctor’s office, rather than a patient; listening and not clarifying, taking the doctor as the authority in the situation although – as a patient – you are the authority of your own body.

Carl Jung, prominent psychologist (and student of Sigmund Freud) spoke of the “Persona”; “a kind of mask, designed on the one hand to make a definite impression upon others, and on the other to conceal the true nature of the individual”.

Taking this as a basis, I believe that our person as DO hide our true selves, but that (i) we do not only have one Persona, and (ii) that we do have a choice about which Persona we use at different times. Given that my conceptualization of Jung’s Persona is different, I prefer to think in terms of “masks”.

As a student, we have facets that come to the fore; listening, open to learning, conscientious in completing our schoolwork and homework, and so forth. As a patient, these may shift – we increase the value of speaking, our conscientious now only focuses on the task of taking our medication or following suggestions, and we have a greater awareness of our bodies.

In social relationships, too, do we wear masks. These masks, depending on our relationship with the person in front of us, can have more or less solidity as well as have different facets. I may be more goofy and silly with one friend or group of friends, but be more mature with another. And there is always the case of being able to share some things with our friends that we don’t share with our family and/or vice versa.

Underneath all of these masks, however, is our true selves. A conscientious person, for instance, may be more so in one situation and less in another, but that does not mean they stop being conscientious altogether. I do not stop being mature completely with one group of friends, or cease making jokes with the other. The difference here is in levels.

Some may consider using these masks as hypocrisy – after all, one’s true self is not the same as one is portraying. A mask, however, obscures the true nature of a person, but it does not change it and does not express the opposite. If the person who speaks of politics is a Democrat, for instance, they may keep quiet about the same if they wish, but it is when they express support for the Republican party or its politics that we can consider the person a hypocrite.

To be a hypocrite, however, one has to be fully aware that they are going against their true selves – that which lies behind the mask. It is only when we know what facets lie behind the mask that we can decide the degree to which we want to express them, if at all.

For instance, I know I am empathetic. This may be more visible in my work as a therapist but slightly less as a teacher (at least in schools where information dissemination is more important than meaningful learning, but that is a topic for another post!) However, even if the level at which I express it may differ, that does not change the fact that I am empathetic.

Why is it so important to remember that we wear masks? Because the mask is not the whole of our true selves, but only a part of it. One’s true self is the foundation for our masks, not the other way around. And since no one knows our true selves as well as we do, we are the ones who decide how to create our masks the way that fits US best in the role we play.

Here I come to the second aspect of ‘masks’. I believe that our choice of mask isn’t only dependent on making a definite impression on others, but rather the aspects of our true selves that we are comfortable sharing with the other person.

For example, someone may choose to show a concrete mask to a person they have just met rather than a less solid one (as is often the case with individuals with trauma history). That might not lead to a definite impression. In fact, it would be possible that the individual left no impression on the person.

The importance of agency, or a person’s choice, figures into the masks we use. We choose how to create our mask based not on the impression we want to make, but how comfortable we would feel wearing it. The mask must conform to our true selves for it to be comfortable, and depending on the outside world for such information would be ineffective. Doing so could also confuse us about our own true selvesw or could lead to us being hypocrites.

Masks are not a bad thing – often we will meet individuals with whom some facet or another of our true selves would be incompatible. Masks allow us to interact with various people with minimal distress, and can be altered or exchanged for other masks if significant incompatibility is noticed.

It is when we wear the masks for ourselves, however, that they may be dangerous. If the masks begin to be the source of who our true selves are, there is a risk of us ignoring or even going directly against who we believe we are. In such a situation, one would in effect allow the world to suppress one’s true identity, increasing emotional and psychological distress in the process.

Perhaps the one of the most important things to remember is to take off one’s mask with themselves. Being free of masks allows us to breathe, to be ourselves in a wholistic and healthy way. To explore if the world outside had given us anything that we wanted to identify with, that we liked or disliked…to add to our true selves that becomes more detailed every day.

So, go ahead. Enjoy your ‘student mask’, ‘teacher mask’, ‘friend mask’, ‘daughter mask’, ‘son mask’…just remember to hang it up at the door when you get home.

The Culture of Privilege.

How long has it been since I last wrote a post? More than a couple of months…maybe more?

I guess this is part of my ADHD. But maybe it is more than that. Over the past month, I would be lying if I didn’t say that I have been somewhat overcome by the injustice that I have read about. Although I have been hearing about the multiple incidents of injustice faced by the African American population, it truly reached a head for me personally only recently. The most recent event in this fire of injustice against the African American population is the reversal of the judgment relating to Breonna Taylor’s murder.

I have always believed that our fight is against injustice. If we are fighting injustice, and it is painfully obvious that a majority of the injustice happens against African American individuals, it is our duty to speak out about it. It is our duty to advocate for those whose voices have been strangled by society. I do the same for the mentally ill, the individuals with disabilities, the LGBTQ+ population…all the minorities that face injustice. But I do it per person without ascribing myself to any particular population. Why? Because I am leery of assuming that all individuals from a particular minority deals with injustice.

I, personally, hold myself as an example. I have rarely faced any injustice because of my race, gender, or sexual orientation (I am a person of color, female, demisexual/asexual). Rather, in today’s context, I am privileged. I have lived in more than one country, obtained several degrees, and so forth. At the same time, I am privileged in other ways, too – I always have food to eat, clean clothes to wear, a roof over my head.

Thus, I find it hard-pressed to talk about being subject to injustice – I have had more than enough given to me in my life that I could never do so. And I am not alone, either – there are several individuals who, like me, belong to minorities but have not experienced injustice. So, when I protest injustice, I do so based on objective evidence – and there is no dearth of that – but also on whether or not the people being unjust are aware of it.

Speaking of privilege brings up a rather interesting dilemma. According to some theorists, stereotypes are neutral in nature, only becoming prejudice when they are given a value, i.e. good-bad. Prejudice is assumed to mean a negative value is imposed on a neutral descriptor of an individual. However, we can also see prejudice in the opposing direction – where a neutral descriptor is given a positive value. The tricky part is what I propose here – would privilege thus be another form of prejudice?

Think of it this way – being educated is a neutral descriptor of a person. There are still times when a person is considered “over-qualified” for a position that they are interested in because of their education. In this reference, being educated is actually being given a negative value, so this could be interpreted as prejudice.

But being educated is often given a positive value instead. So, someone who has been educated is viewed more favorably, and may thus be considered privileged. Following this logic, then, privilege is in fact the imposition of a positive value on a neutral concept just as prejudice is the imposition of a negative value on a neutral concept.

This then brings me back to why I treat every instance of injustice in its own right. Personally, this allows for me to treat the issue within the framework in which it exists, removing assumptions from the situation. I do not say that individuals are not victims of prejudice. But being a part of a population does not immediately mean that a person is a victim of prejudice. Likewise, being a part of a population does not necessarily mean that a person is privileged. What is important is: (i) the actual situation in which the topic arises, and (ii) how THE PERSON THEMSELVES identify.

Given the example above, someone may not be willing to accept the idea that they are privileged because of their education if that very education stands in the way of them getting a job. The situation is “getting a job”, and they identify THEIR having an extensive education as more of a hindrance in this situation than a privilege.

I am by no means a scholar or researcher in this field. However, I have always preferred to look at any concept from every viewpoint. I therefore sincerely hope that those who read this do not take umbrage in what is said. It is simply a thought that I would like to share.

Enjoy the Silence.

I have ADHD, I am considered an extrovert, and my being quiet has often led to others believing that I am depressed. The truth is, however…I recognize the importance of being with myself in silence.

How often do we face silence and either try to fill it with words or with doing something (like play with our phones)? Silence is difficult for most people – when we are with another person, we feel like there should be some form of communication happening. When there ISN’T anyone around, we seek them out virtually.

Admittedly, no man (or woman, or child) is an island. Social well-being is, after all, a part of our overall well-being. But words are not the only way we can be social. Indeed, verbal communication makes up only a quarter of what we are sharing with another.

Those silences? They are actually full of conversation, we just don’t realize it. Consider how some silences feel comfortable while others agitate us. How we perceive the silence depends on so many things – It might be the person we’re with, or the context, our expectations or what we think the other person expects. It may even be the impression we want to make.

Silence is, in fact, an opportunity to use our non-verbal skills to express what we would use words for.  I recall sitting next to my sister in silence one day. She sat there on her phone, I sat next to her, desperately restraining myself from telling her “you know, it’s rude to be on your phone when I’m sitting right here. If nothing, at least we could DO something together”. I knew from experience, however, that verbalizing this often led to arguments which I did not want to waste my time on.

So, I tried something new – I turned towards her at an angle, took my phone out and fiddled with it, but looked up at her in intervals. At one point, she caught my eye and asked, “what?” My response was simple – “if you’re done, can we do something together?” I had not said anything to catch her attention, and yet she heard me loud and clear. There is a reason that non-verbal communication makes up more than half of our communication (if you’re wondering, the other quarter of communication is para-verbal, sounds that replace words (like grunts, or “m-hmm”).

Of course, at times it is silence because there IS no one to talk to; an imposed silence (unless you listen to music, watch something electronically, or talk to yourself). However, even in this case, silence can be valuable. It is in silence that we can focus our attention inwards. Physically, our senses do not need to work as hard as they do otherwise – there is nothing to hear, nothing to say. No observations to make of the person in front of us. Instead, we can hear sounds we would not have paid attention to otherwise, natural (birds singing, trees and leaves rustling) or not (whirring refrigerator or air conditioner). In fact, one of the strategies for mindfulness involves focusing on what our senses perceive in complete silence so as to validate existing in the present.

Meanwhile, silence does not necessarily mean inactivity – we may not move around much, but our minds most definitely are. What has happened, what is happening, what will happen…our minds do not stop. When we are ensconced in silence, with our senses demanding less of us, we have the opportunity to direct our thoughts the way WE want them to go, without having them directed by unconscious processes or emotional states. Self-reflection, questioning the validity of how we thought about events or experiences we had, gleaning from them what we learned and where we confirmed our old strengths and found new ones…silence can involve a great deal more growth than we give it credit for.

So embrace silence. Use it. It isn’t an unnecessary and redundant vacuum – it is full of possibilities.